Meet Monique
Mission
To honor the generation changers, the light workers, the powerful, the seekers, the beauty, the magic, the shadow workers, the wounded, the healing, the victimized & the creators.
To support others in healing and transending old paradigms and stepping into divine health, healthy expression and embodiment of spirit.
About
Monique is a gifted leader, healer, mother, shaman, psychic, artist, aspiring author, Designer and creator.
She has dedicated six years to deep, intensive shadow work as a top student, learning from some of the most renowned teachers in the world — including expert emotional intelligence trainers, certified trauma professionals, advanced shamans, and exceptionally gifted energy healers.
A lifelong top student and quick study, Monique fell in love with “the work” almost instantly and continues to evolve with passion and commitment.
From birth, Monique’s brilliance and uniqueness were clear to her family. They share stories of her extraordinary early milestones: rolling across the floor, stacking pillows, and even reaching the answering machine at just four months old. By seven months, three weeks, and four days, she began walking.
At 11, she was eager to engage in adult conversations, and by 14, she had already decided she wanted to be a mother—becoming one at 16.
Monique is both a world traveler and a hermit at heart, embracing moments of solitude alongside a deeply fun, playful, joyful, and wise nature.
Her path has not been a rocky one. As a survivor of sexual assault, rape, date rape, and multiple body boundary violations as well as physical abuse, violence from a partner and theft, Monique’s journey has been brutal, intense, and filled with lots of beautiful experiences too.
Monique has a relentless desire to change the world and truly create peace on earth, save all the animals and ensure this planet & all its inhabitants find their place in the universe.
As an astrological soul mate to Elon Musk, and as an ET soul, she attributes her level of constant desire for innovation, growth and pushing the limits to her "stars".
Suicide & Mental Health
Monique battled suicidal ideation or the idea of "not being here anymore" began at tender age of nine until the age of 33. This life long, difficult journey taught her invaluable lessons about despair, mental health, support, surrendering the sword, vulnerability and the resilience of the soul while pushing her to re-enroll in life over and over again and step into her never ending gifts, vulnerability, and heart.
One of the most profound insights she gained is that sometimes, even in the face of extreme suffering, the soul remains unchanged by the body’s fate. She also learned that the universe can sometimes amplify challenges during mental health crises, especially for highly sensitive individuals and can be amplified by karmic relationships or situations.
For Monique, suicidal thoughts were about reclaiming choice after a lifetime of feeling a lack of body autonomy and the lack of a container to fully express her true self and her gifts. They were the quiet conversations she needed to soothe parts of herself she hadn’t known how to handle. She also recognizes that some souls simply cannot bear this life’s weight—and that is okay, but if it were up to her, every person and every soul would have the support needed to move beyond that pain and into divine healing, love, and wholeness and nobody would be lost to suicide.
Monique encourages anyone struggling with suicidal ideation to seek help, knowing that support and healing are possible, in fact our counselor, Peter pulled her back from the edge of suicide and helped her rehabilitate herself and step into…well this.
Relationship with Sex
"I share this vulnerable part of myself with you, sacred brother, sacred sister, with the intention to spread awareness and inspiration. Know that—just like for many of you—this is not always easy to talk about." - Monique
Monique’s relationship with sex has been shaped by deep trauma, courageous healing, and a relentless quest for truth and reclamation. Her earliest sexual experiences were traumatic, unfolding in a culture where sex was hidden, shamed, and misunderstood. As a result, she spent years trying to “figure it all out”—believing that love could be earned through sexual connection, and putting immense pressure on herself to be “good in bed.” At many points, she turned to pornography, both alone and with partners—something she no longer engages with and now views as misaligned with her path and the sacred which we should all be working to reclaim.
This internalized pressure contributed to the development of vaginismus, a pelvic floor disorder that causes involuntary contractions of the vaginal muscles. Penetrative sex became extremely painful and emotionally distressing. Though rare, Monique has experienced fleeting moments of full pelvic relaxation—moments that gave her hope and faith in the possibility of deep healing.
Her decision to practice abstinence followed a deeply unsettling sexual encounter she now recognizes as a form of energetic “offloading” and a “stealing of her light.” The experience awakened something fierce in her—“woke the mama bear,” as she describes it. But even then, she didn’t fully heed the message. Choosing instead to “walk on the wild side,” she found herself yet another encounter of questionable consent.
It was then that Archangel Michael appeared to her with a firm message: “Enough with the men.” That divine intervention catalyzed a three-year commitment to abstinence.
During this sacred pause, she deepened her relationship with herself. She gave up all pornographic use and began to explore pleasure through the lens of self-love and reverence. In this journey, she had a profound encounter with The Goddess—a powerful, embodied experience of raw, divine feminine energy that coursed through her entire mind, body, and soul. It rocked her. In the wake of this revelation, she felt deep remorse for every time she had “used” sex or "misused" sex.
Near the end of her 3 year journey with abstinence, Monique's vaginismus worsened to the point of being unable to walk, followed by quickly deteriorating mental health and a loss of most relationships in her life which brought her to seeking comfort through sexual connection once again. But again it led to further trauma, including multiple experiences of rape. These events shattered her, pushing her beyond the edge with her mental health and forcing her to surrender fully—to trust the universe, fight harder than she ever knew she could. With no job, on a leave of absence from medical school and living in a hut in the mountains of Colombia, she found a counselor (Peter) to support her and is working with the authorities to report and pursue justice for her experiences of rape.
Monique continues to work hard to reclaim her sovereignty and energetically defend herself from the pain of being sexualized (something she decided to try to combat by shaving her head). Not only for herself, but for the countless others who carry unspoken pain. She asks the hard questions many survivors wrestle with:
Was it really consent if I was intoxicated?
Was it consent if I didn’t know how to say no?
Most conscious, integrated men would say, “Hell no.” But society still blurs these lines and that’s exactly why Monique is so committed to giving voice, language, and healing to this painful and often confusing aspect of our shared human experience.
She continues to practice abstinence, focus on pelvic floor relaxation, and is holding out for a relationship with a partner to meet the sacred, powerful, Goddess in her.
Relationship with Food & Body Image
"I share this part of myself with you to model that I am, as always, a student—never the guru—and here to be me, just as I am, where I am." – Monique
Like many, Monique has wrestled with what it truly means to have a healthy relationship with food and her body. Her struggle began shortly after her first experience of sexual trauma, leading to years of living with anorexia and bulimia that continued into her early twenties. Even beyond those acute phases, disordered eating lingered in her life as she searched for balance—trying to understand the nuanced line between fasting and self-punishment, between health and control, indulgence and nourishment.
She often found herself wondering:
"Is it truly healthy if I’m working out to look a certain way—or if my motivation is rooted in a desire to be loved, feel safe, or simply survive? Where is the line—and where is the bridge—to divine health?"
Body image has been another deep well of inner work. There have been times Monique struggled with her weight, self-perception, and sense of worth. She continues to meet herself in this space with tenderness and curiosity. She believes this struggle is not hers alone—but part of a greater collective healing, especially among women, as we redefine what health, beauty, and self-love really mean.
With experience in extended fasting and mindful eating, Monique approaches her relationship with food and her body with honesty and reverence. It’s not something she claims to have mastered—but a path she is walking with intention, grace, and a willingness to start again, over and over.
"I believe we’re here to witness each other’s beauty and inspire courageous acts of self-awareness, self-restraint, and real self-love—not from shame, but from deep reverence for who we’re becoming."
Upbringing & Childhood
Monique's parents.